I don't wanna be like this

I eat

I’m full

I eat some more

I’m full full

But i eat some more

I take a break

just to eat some more

Another break

and maybe some more

a void

not full

never full

cannot be filled with food

only hidden

But sweets

they’re different

Sweets

not only hide

the void

They celebrate it

Watch me eat

watch me trip over myself

trying to hide away

from the hurt

the hurt

that will not fade

the hurt

i am scared to feel

the hurt

i can’t help but feel

the hurt

I cling to

The Hurt

I Feel I Deserve

The Hurt

I knew as a child

The hurt

I run from

my whole life

runs frum

this hurt

that i cannot

escape

for anything

and in the end

i’ll go through

when I’m ready

because I want to

to feel something else

something better

something I truely

deserve